i am going to be 19 in 2 days and my favorite show is made for 9 year olds
Hi Bearblog! I havent posted on here in awhile, mainly because I started keeping a hobonichi weeks and mostly ramble on there.
Anyways, I turn 19 in two days and that has got me quite concerned because of very stupid reasons. Now, usually I am very kind to myself; I know I have childish interests and I respect that about myself-- its better than doing drugs right? But these past few days I've been a bit insecure about that.
This wave of insecurity-- or maybe the better word is self conciousness?-- started when at Target, I saw a lego magazine with EMMET BRICKOWSKI ON IT!!!! I was SO excited I immediately stopped in my tracks at the self checkout and completely zoned out, only focusing on him. See, Emmet Brickowski is my favorite tv character of all time. i LOVE emmet brickowski. While he is quite a mainstream character, it is rare to see him just randomly out and about in daily life so it completely took me by surprise. It was just so awesome to see him...
This is the magazine!!
Around 10 seconds later though, my mom took me out of my giddy excitement to remind me that we were in fact, in a target self checkout.
I saw this same magazine at a barnes and noble checkout and it had the same reaction from me again. This got me thinking, is this really normal?? I mean-- I've always been a bit obsessive and always been a bit too into cartoons, but like, certainly the general public, especially people my age, dont get that excited when they see a childrens movie character right?
But also, at the same time, who am I hurting by being so excited over seeing a little lego man on a magazine? No one!!!! I think that is super important to realize for myself. I didnt end up getting the magazine, but the next time i see it i probably will (even tho i dont really like legos that much and only like the movie LOL)
And also, luckily for me, I have friends who are exactly like me and are into the exact same stuff as me. By getting self conscious about myself and insulting my interests, im also insulting their interests as well. If I cant like legos because Im "Too old" then should my friends also quit what they enjoy doing just cause I think its childish?? No!!! I think I have been really lucky with having friends that are so connected with me. Makes stuff like this a lot harder to internalize and get mad at myself at...
Whether you want to recognize it or not, there are always ppl out there JUST like you and i think thats superr important. I've just been lucky to know people in person that like the same stuff i do and i think many people fall into this pithole where they think theyre the only one like themself. There are like 8 billion people on this earth, there is someone just like u out there...