i feel so bad for people who have to wash their face everyday
"ermm isnt it kinda gross not to wash ur face everyday??" No??? the people who say stuff like that are the EXACT same people who will look at you weird when u say u dont brush ur curly hair and only wash it on a week!!!
I only ever wash my face when I consider it "gross" which is like once a week. Maybe it has something to do with my undiagnosed adhd but I just do not get the appeal of making yourself endure that sensory nightmare every day. But then again, I have literally never been good at keeping up with hygiene ever since I was little.
I have a friend who has the worst acne ever, genuinely horrible. They go to the dermatologist and get facials every 2 weeks. I still have clearer skin than them even though both of us dont wear makeup or anything else that makes you have 'bad skin'. I have had maybe like 2 pimples in my entire life and their face is full of them
why exactly do i have such clear skin? No clue. maybe god realized i wouldnt wash it even if I did have bad acne that wouldnt go away.
I think about that whole thing quite often. A lot of what we think are problems we need to fix are really just genetics being shitty to us. Who gives a fuck if your skin is a bit nasty yknow?
I have this guy I know and he has horrific acne and the most chapped lips I've ever seen-- I want to gift him chapstick but i dont know if he would find it offensive. He probably wouldnt because he never really percieves others of having ill intentions. He picks at his face a lot so there's always something thats a bit open. he's still the most attractive guy I know though because he's funny and endearing and the yin to my yang (like in ninjago!!) and I love him. Who cares if his genetics (and maybe his habit of picking) is working against him. I for sure dont. He's still funny.
I think something to consider is that I have this slight disconnect between my body and "myself". I'll probably delve into that a bit deeper at some point. I've never really felt insecure about my body or cared too much about my appearance because my internal thoughts and actions are way more significant to me. I also dont really think about how people will percieve me too much LOL. I think this has fed into my "being a robot" thing because I really do feel like someone controlling a weird fleshy body (but also like, not in the way thats detrimental to myself because i dont care that much for it to negatively affect me)
whatever. Ill talk more about it and maybe edit it to make it a lot clearer when im not a bit sleepy i suppose xP