Started playing League of Legends & I actually ENJOY it... Maybe I should kill myself
Because of Arcane, I made the horrible decision to start playing League Of Legends. I thought to myself "Surely I'll get through the tutorial and absolutely hate it" but no. I actually enjoy it. Horrible.
I've been playing pretty much only League few days and I remember why exactly I try to avoid video games-- WAY too much dopamine for my undiagnosed adhd brain. I just can't handle it.
And of course I decide to get into this stupid time waster game RIGHT when I have to study for finals!!! I have a CS final project I have to make and a Public Speaking quiz AND speech to prepare for and I havent done any of it because of league!!! NOT good!!! I HAVE to lock in...
In other news, my friend invited me over for Thanksgiving dinner and I am SCARED!!!! My parents are visiting my sister for thanksgiving and leaving me behind in a whole nother state but I told m friend so his mom invited me over.
This wouldnt be a problem except that i am GODS PICKIEST EATER!!!! I dont eat pretty much ANY of the "traditional" thanksgiving foods except potatoes. Im too scared to ask what food is gonna be there too so Im just hoping and praying I can force myself to eat whatever they have. I havent had turkey since I was like 5 or something. The smell of most meat makes me nasues... hope I survive!!!
There's also the (fake made belief) issue that his family is gonna be there-- his siblings & grandmother. how... am i supposed to act WHAT!!!! his family and my family are structured VERY differently. His family is a lot more family orientated (they like, do stuff with eachother) while my family kinda just ignores eachother and if someone needs something they maybe get it. Thinking about his family vs mine always makes me a bit sad.
It's also gonna be a sleepover since me and that friend live so far away from eachother and my parents are gonna be in a different state. Its gonna be my first sleepover with said friend... how exciting!! He has slept over my house but I've never slept over his. I've only been there once.